Every day that I spend With you by my side I just know is gonna be The best of my life Falling apart and then Picking me up Meeting you had to be The best kind of luck ‘Cause life to death and heartache to tear I know I’ll be fine ‘cause I’ve got you here Giving up seems easy, I know But just stick with me See how much you’ll grow Even when I thought I Couldn’t go on You held me and told me that I was strong Step by step Day by day We’ll get through ‘Cause you have me and I’ve got you ‘Cause life to death and heartache to tear I know I’ll be fine ‘cause I’ve got you here Giving up seems easy, I know But just stick with me See how much you’ll grow So never let go Never say “goodbye” ‘Cause thanks to you I feel so alive

my brain my brain is broken but u give me oh u give me hope and i cant wait to see u again and again... u make me say uh oh uh oh uh oh now theres no use no use in pointing fingers or pointing to begin it's just what happens oh its just what is when i see u and i stop breathin' u make me say uh oh uh oh uh oh i get stretched so thin it's not bc of u or her or him i just do things on a whim i swear i'm allergic to the dim now its not ur fault or something that u said but sometimes i feel like i can't fucking win u make me say uh oh if thats good or bad it's for me to know my love for this enigma grows as time just goes and goes and goes u make me say uh oh uh oh uh oh

well i guess in the end it’s me not you who’s at a loss what i mean is i’m still lonely well i guess in the end it’s me not you who had a crush what i mean is i’m still lonely well i guess i’m all freaked because i’m just normally so numb i not used to these feelings and you make me blush without tryin i feel so damn nervous every time you’re near not that it matters you’re not for me and it was you who had it all it was you who had it all im just crush material but there’s nothing between us there’s just something between me you’re just crush material well there’s nothing between us it’s just something between me i’m just crush material we’re just crush material i’m just crush material

so if this is what it means to be happy then i’ll leave & trade for miserable i think i’m better off by myself no need to be followed by my troubles red splattered with ink on your shoes calling on angels to bring me back to you breaking my own heart all over again i see you in my dreams but it’s not enough then if you hold onto these parts of me maybe it won’t hurt as much as it does you’re the only one who can watch me bleed after all this is an exercise of trust youve got your lipstick covered cigarette, with me brushed up against your breath you’ve fallen in love with this apocalypse we disintegrate in this final kiss we flicker & fade, we whisper & wait we react with shame all in the name of love i was never meant to be the one to save you but i promise to never hide you from the truth if you hold onto these parts of me maybe it won’t hurt as much as it does you’re the only one who can watch me bleed after all this is an exercise of trust

Maybe it’s a lot Maybe it’s not enough Thumbing through these lies Honesty has done enough Maybe I’m hopeless Hope has lost this one Maybe I’m fine Maybe I’ve messed it up Skimming through these lines Please just shut up Maybe I’m hopeless I have lost this one Oooou Maybe it’s all wrong Maybe we’re losing time Running from ourselves Just close your eyes Maybe I’m helpless Can’t even help myself Maybe there’s a light Maybe I just forgot Hiding in plain sight Can’t help but feel so small Maybe I’m helpless I’ll try again I swear Tell me that I’m okay Tell me that I’ll be fine Tell me that I’m all right

I guess that I'm okay Well, I'm not dying I guess that I have spent a lot of time alone For trying I guess that you're away 'Cause you're busy At least if you're to say that we're still friends Pretend you miss me 'Cause I knew you were love when at your best But maybe if I hadn't been depressed We'd go out more Ah, yeah I got a broken heart but it still works But even if it's beating it still hurts 'Cause now I still got ninety-nine more problems To account for And I bet all your friends say "I'm glad that she's gone" Like you're the only excuse I had friends to lean on But, was it just in my head I was loved all along Or, did you love me then And did they love me then And could you love again (I can lose a lover) But I cannot lose a lover and a friend (I can find another) But I'll never find another you again I've been splitting 'cause it's better than admitting That it's something that I can't control I was livid, what you did was nothing easily forgiven Yet I couldn't let go And I bet all your friends say "I'm glad that she's gone" Like you're the only excuse I had friends to lean on But, was it just in my head I was loved all along Or, did you love me then And did they love me then And could you love again Ha No, no, no (No, no, no) I saw you at the bar where we used to drink I wish that I could change the way that I think I tell you it's black and white And if we start a war could it be another night? Then I proceeded to make a scene You said we need to heal before we can speak I said but it's already more than a week Since you and I talked before And I don't know if I would wanna take anymore But now I understand what you mean Before you say goodbye Did you see how you hurt me (But I hurt you too) (Then we both got so blue) We had reasons to cry I had reasons to worry (But you worried too) (Sorry if I worried you) 'Cause I've been a mess, I've been depressed I've been neglected, I've been obsessed I've been neglectful, I can admit it My future looked brighter whenever you're in it But you probably won't be, I get it Yeah, you probably won't, I admit it The ice that we skate is the thinnest My skin is the thinnest, my patience the thinnest I'm healing, I'll say when I'm finished I wish I were finished, I got more to say I know that I got more to say, yeah I swear that I got more to say I know things that you hid from me, know my fragility Know that's the reason you done what you did to me Even though my borderline has been killing me I can't go back to the mental facility, no Before you say goodbye Did you see how you hurt me But I hurt you too Then we both got so blue We had reasons to cry I had reasons to worry But you worried too Sorry if I worried you, oh I want to be believed in Doesn't got to be you

I really don't know if I could Look at this the same way, I could've sworn That you were torn But simply looked away Hey, where you going Wait for me I can't go on my own I'll sit here with these memories So I don't feel alone Am I a friend? Am I a toy? Am I just some foolish boy Too naive to ever know That the problem is you The Stockholm syndrome's kicking in Where are you taking me? I'm getting I lived in my very own cages Locked throw away the key I left the candle burning through the night For you to see But you, you moved on Fooled by the face Put back on my head every day so now I have to say Am I a friend? Am I a toy? Am I just some foolish boy Too naive to ever know That the problem is you The Stockholm syndrome's kicking in Where are you taking me? I'm getting Am I a friend? Am I a toy? Are you just some foolish boy Too naive to ever know That the problem is you The Stockholm syndrome's kicking in Where are you taking me? I'm getting scared!

Kind of awkward, am I freaking you out? I don't mean to be rude, but I'm a wreck and I need some help, What's your name, forget the time, can I just ask you to dance? The red in your cheeks flared, and my record came on again. Give me your arms, and let me spin you around. I'm nervous, I'm thinking, that I'm letting you down. Let me tell you one thing; I don't know what I'm doing, Let me tell you a second thing; I've never done this before, I feel like a spider on the wall, and I've already spilled my drink, I'm surprised you even talked to me. Give me your arms, and let me spin you around. I'm nervous, I'm thinking that I'm letting you down. I'm so glad to see your face, because I can't behave in public places.

Needle in the arm, feeling draining from me. Better close my eyes, lest I pass out. Pink around the wrist, I’m free to go now. Leave through the front door, and I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m gonna do with my life. Drink some water, you didn’t lose a whole lot of blood back there, but a loss of blood’s still a loss of blood. So drink up, drink up, and so a toast, to all the things we’re leaving behind. To deadnames, addictions, and bodies that we hate, to cancers and blood clots and the risks that we take, to a new day, say hey, drink up while you can, because water is something we need to survive. I’m afraid to admit it, but I guess I’ll admit that I don’t know where I’m going, or what I’m gonna do with my life. To hell with it all, I have broken the bindings around my wrists, and they fall. I am no longer stuck in this disgusting frame. My whole life I’ve been told to be who you are, but I haven’t been able to do that thus far, until somebody told me that I wasn’t all alone.

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